I miss you like I have never missed you before. You are so far and it is ripping my heart out. There is never a second in the day when you don't reside in me.I feel lost and resigned to a fateful life that is more unfortunate than the malady of death.
I can't bear the agony of having you so far. In due time,the distance will be limitless. Time, distance and memories; how will I bear this? I haven't been to the thrid floor since you left. I know my eyes will search for you in vain knowing fully well you are not here and then my heart will wrench with this unbearable desire of having you right before me. A desire that is rusting me to my core, my soul. My willfullness is unforgivable! What would I not give to see that face that lights up a dream within a dream! Zainab has been calling me over for tea for three days now. I keep making lame excuses; I am in a meeting with Ravi, I am talking to Harald, when all along here I am frozen in my seat with thoughts of you. Thoughts that are agonizing and draining. You once said to me "turn back nothing is lost"...Mat everything is lost now. I looked at myself in the mirror and all I see is a listless being trapped in some alien life. The empty eyes having every iota of life sucked out, tear streams reaching far below my chin blotching my face, the ugly circles clinging the eyes. The face of a forsaken destitute. Memories and wishes are merciless and brutal. Why will they ever spare me whether you are here or there, whether you are quiet or silent, whether you acknolwedge me or ignore me. I miss our time together and not having life with you. My life without the essence of life; YOU. There is but one life and there is but one chance to love, miss and mourn a great one; YOU.
I can't bear the agony of having you so far. In due time,the distance will be limitless. Time, distance and memories; how will I bear this? I haven't been to the thrid floor since you left. I know my eyes will search for you in vain knowing fully well you are not here and then my heart will wrench with this unbearable desire of having you right before me. A desire that is rusting me to my core, my soul. My willfullness is unforgivable! What would I not give to see that face that lights up a dream within a dream! Zainab has been calling me over for tea for three days now. I keep making lame excuses; I am in a meeting with Ravi, I am talking to Harald, when all along here I am frozen in my seat with thoughts of you. Thoughts that are agonizing and draining. You once said to me "turn back nothing is lost"...Mat everything is lost now. I looked at myself in the mirror and all I see is a listless being trapped in some alien life. The empty eyes having every iota of life sucked out, tear streams reaching far below my chin blotching my face, the ugly circles clinging the eyes. The face of a forsaken destitute. Memories and wishes are merciless and brutal. Why will they ever spare me whether you are here or there, whether you are quiet or silent, whether you acknolwedge me or ignore me. I miss our time together and not having life with you. My life without the essence of life; YOU. There is but one life and there is but one chance to love, miss and mourn a great one; YOU.
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