I am craving to see him, like a wilting flower craving rain, budding at the tiniest of rain drops. He didn't check my messages for over a day. I could see the "D" on my BBM messages. He never does that.
We were talking fine until he stopped checking them at all. He probably read them and somehow they weren't received, the mean tricks of Blackberry and the ones who know it! My heart kept sinking as I neither saw the "R" on my messages nor did I receive a reply. Matty it is really okay to receive my messages and not wanting to reply. You do that many times but when you either read them and ensure I dont see a "R" or when you dont check them at all, it makes me wonder If I am irritating you. I was up all night thinking of him. I slept in gaps. I couldn't help messaging him again and he took a while to reply. He was out for dinner with office people. I told him there was never a time when he didn't check his messages. I was sorry to bug him. He just said that he was extremely busy. He was either asleep or working nineteen to the dozen. I told him I won't bug him further and bid him good-bye.
Deep down I have been worrying if he is shoving me away or is it just too much work. I broke down in the Bathroom again when no one was around. Not a sound escaped me. Only the walls around me were a witness to my misery. They are always there, my silent choiceless spectators.
We were talking fine until he stopped checking them at all. He probably read them and somehow they weren't received, the mean tricks of Blackberry and the ones who know it! My heart kept sinking as I neither saw the "R" on my messages nor did I receive a reply. Matty it is really okay to receive my messages and not wanting to reply. You do that many times but when you either read them and ensure I dont see a "R" or when you dont check them at all, it makes me wonder If I am irritating you. I was up all night thinking of him. I slept in gaps. I couldn't help messaging him again and he took a while to reply. He was out for dinner with office people. I told him there was never a time when he didn't check his messages. I was sorry to bug him. He just said that he was extremely busy. He was either asleep or working nineteen to the dozen. I told him I won't bug him further and bid him good-bye.
Deep down I have been worrying if he is shoving me away or is it just too much work. I broke down in the Bathroom again when no one was around. Not a sound escaped me. Only the walls around me were a witness to my misery. They are always there, my silent choiceless spectators.
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