Convofy

its been more than two weeks now since Mat left. The convofy episode with Asim bhai left me wary of what Mat might think. If huma hadnt called him sneakily alluding to unecessary importance of our chat that circled around black currant tea bags, I would never have thought of it in a twisted way.

Reminder: He is leaving

Just a few minutes ago, I was downstairs for tea. Had tea with J when he casually mentioned that Blackberries were being replaced with Iphones! the only thing that came to my mind was Mat and Mat!

I can't help falling

I miss you like I have never missed you before. You are so far and it is ripping my heart out. There is never a second in the day when you don't reside in me.I feel lost and resigned to a fateful life that is more unfortunate than the malady of death.

Ignoring again?

I am craving to see him, like a wilting flower craving rain, budding at the tiniest of rain drops. He didn't check my messages for over a day. I could see the "D" on my BBM messages. He never does that.

He lands

I had request Mat to let me know when he landed. I barely slept ever since he flew. I missed him terribly and the worry of him being in mid-air kept me awake. He messaged me as soon as he landed, It was 3:32 am. He was dead tired. All I wanted to do at that moment was to scoop him in my lap and put him to sleep so that I could watch him over like an angel. Not that he needs to be watched over, I love looking at his face, it is like no other; unique, intriguing with this raw appeal.

He flew

Mat's plane flew off a little past 3:00 am today, I had been up all night just to be close to him. He left after 11:00 PM and we kept talking until he flew. The moment he was cut off from BBM, I felt this gagging feeling originating from my throat goign all the way down to the pit of my stomach. I burried myself in the pillow, looking at his picture and crying. The sun will never rise again.