Lunch

It was Friday today, the dreadful two hour long break with nothing to do on my hands. So I grabbed my laptop and went on the ground floor to watch Rome and kill time. It was awfully cold in my department my hands were freezing, even though I was wearing my black waterfall thing. Mat headed down the stairs around 1:15 pm carrying a white manila envelope in company stationary. He saw me and raised his eyebrows amusingly, probably wondering what I was doing. He was in a gray lacoste T, jeans and gray boots. He headed out. I thought he was out for lunch or some other escapade when I saw him come in around 2:00 PM. So it was the Friday prayer visit. He strutted off towards the lift and had to wait for it to come by. So he came over and stood by me and we chit chatted casually. Then he asked if I had had lunch? I hadn't by then and and had no solid plans. So he asked if I was going to...at all? I gave an unsure reply that I was. I got so confused because I think he wanted to have lunch together. Such moments always leave me confused and bewildered in light of what all has happened in the past. I still remember how nat spoke " stop calling him for lunch" and how he had shown someone my message when I used to ping him for lunch "See she calls me for lunch...". Mat really I don't know what to do around you, follow what I feel like doing or decide a course of action in light of how you changed so swiftly and radically. So he went to the lift and I got up too. He went off to get his sandwich and I went to get my stuff from my seat. We went down in the same elevator. I got the slip for my food and his tea. We sat, ate and chatted together. After lunch we smoked on the right side of the building. The rest of the day went by chatting on BBM. I had a late sitting today and he was out for a funeral, he probably didn't have his con call today and was hanging out with a friend of his. He comes and goes like the monsoon; Unpredictable and whimsy. I am always here when that monsoon pours down. Sometimes in a faint drizzle, at other times it is ferocious with a familiar fervor. I realize this more and more and it leaves me in more pain.