Amorous

I decided not to message mat today but I ended up doing it!!!!! How am I to refrain!!!! He was busy, his delayed and short replies were clear. Consistently sending in smilies and then the smiley turned to a kiss. This kiss...can I have this kiss forever as I thought to myself. We excahnged a lot of kisses and hugs today. The more he does this, the more I am reminded of the one kiss we have ever shared and the more it entices me and takes me in completely. Mat I don't know what it is about you. There is something about your way with me. Our chat lasted the whole day long as usual. Today was unusually an amorous one. I was in the shower and mat doesn't stop then. I have never known temptation. To me it has always been an unbelievable and bookish word. Mat you are my one and only testing temptation. I have a hard time hiding and denying it. It is not taking me anywhere. When you are silent, Its the loss of that connection that I tempt and crave for. When you are near, It becomes too much to handle. A strange mixture of wistfullness, wishfullness, temptation and what not. When this gets too much thats when it comes out in silent tears.