Vanished

Mat has simply vanished. My messages on BBM have been marked "D" since 8th Jan. That is the last we talked. He has simply stopped responding. We haven't fought and neither has there been any untowardly incident to provoke this behaviour. So this morning after much dejection I messaged him on whatsapp too. But to no avail. His status was updated twice to timestamps of 6:08 am and 11:18 am. I sank to an abyss.

Hurting

I felt empty and miserable without Mat. So I picked up a smoke, locked myself in a washroom cubicle in the office and sat and smoked. Hugging myself tightly wishing the pain would disappear. With every puff I imagined whiffing away the misery. Tears rolling down and every tear wrapped securely around a memory of Mat. Yet nothing seemed to go away. I missed him more and more.

As the days close by...

An entire month has passed since Mat left. Last week, if I hadn't bugged him constantly over BBM, he wouldn't have talked. Work has not been occupying him much this time. He arrives early and leaves on time. So it is pretty reasonable. I took a week off and lay like a lump missing and thinking of Mat constantly.