Patterns; new or none

Mat has a new pattern now or maybe none from now. He disappears for a whole week now. Since that fateful Tuesday when he talked, he hasn't initiated a conversation. Busy or not, I do not know. I stay quiet, forcing myself into unwilling reservation. Constantly trying to establish, if his silence is an attempt at creating this distance. Yet when I talk, he does talk and then there is silence for days.
I wonder, if I were not to meddle, would he talk at all. An answer I'm afraid to know. It's been 5 days since we last talked. Monday was rare, but Tuesday has been his day for a long while now. My phone would buzz nearly every time around lunch time. Now, it doesn't. Wondering if it ever will. We had plans to meet this past Sat, of course Mat never got back to me and I didn't inquire either.
I think he is supposed to leave for USA within the next two weeks. I'm wondering what if he goes without a word, what if he never tells me. The most unforgiving part of him is that one never knows what might await you. The socking surprises are always hurtful. And then he says "I miss you!". Missing people who are gone is a natural consequence of their absence. Missing the omnipresent is a manifestation of a more profound misery escaping which is useless.