Cufflinks

I seldom experience premonitions, partly because I choose not to believe them. However, as much as I awaited mat's return and giving him his birthday gift, I knew I wont be able to. This feeling kept tugging at me while he was still abroad attending to his business. He has been back for almost two months now. Those cufflinks in sterlin silver and black agate, still sit atop the third shelf of my cupboard, safely huddled away in a black sephora bag, waiting to reach it's rightful owner. If I want, I can drop them in his lap but I have lost that loving audacity so generously lent to me months ago by mat. So I know, my steps would be stony if I were ever to do so. Years down the line from today, If I still feel the urging need for you to have these, I might take that step.

I always wanted to
let these adorn you
you didn't let it be
and time didn't agree
much time has passed
yet this feeling lasts
so please know
despite the silent blow
and many tears of woe
you still set me aglow